3:32 AM
i've changed my blog to this link
www.demoner.blogspot.com
hope i will still have readers.... =P
tata~~

2:22 AM
it's been so long....why don't i make a more precision time frame....
it's been exactly 5 years since we had broken up.
everything ended so abruptly...why don't i make it more detailed....
we ended our twisted paths through a phonecall....nor a hug nor a kiss to mark the end of the tender relationship we once held between our little fingers.
it was really a fate tat had entered my life in mistake.....why don't i elaborate more abt this love story....
back down to my memory lane...when i was going for my third year in secondary...during the late dec...i had my eyes looking at this girl as a stranger walking past me in a crowded street....i knew right there tat she's no stranger to me in the future... at least my heart told me so...tat one day i will meet her again.... and with no other reason to explain but only god knows it himself....played a little magical trick behind my back.... she was entering the same class as mine after streaming.... and juz dayz before that.... she wrote me a letter as a stranger out of the 200 mails i'd received.... asking to be my pen pal after my particulars were being published in the teenage magazines.... would you not agree with me tat after knowing all these.... who can say tat he who never believe in this madness of love would not surrender to fate tat fit so perfectly well in his puzzles of life....
we had finally got together after O levels.... in between lay the bitterness of my awaits....in which she set of time frame of 3 months to forget her first love... but wat's the significance of 3 months when my love had secretly camouflaged itself for almost 2 years....
she gave me a new life...... a new experience of this emotions tat not many ppl are luckly enough to feel it.... it's like having a pair of wings attached...flying above the gentle clouds...living like the angels....i can even feel the sun rays cleansing away all the sorrows out of my body..filling me warm love all over.....
Trust and faith are the esscences of forever love. You said tat to me once...and i looked into ur eyes with dazzles of hope.... believing in making a completion of my life with urs.......
but alas..... juz when i almost reached the heaven ground...i fell freely through the thunder clouds... down into the hard earth....and swim down to the hell of hot lava tat burned away my soul..leaving my human body....emptied....
i would not say anymore ....for each line i wrote.... i find it pointless to reveal....coz nobody will know this story..even if i've said everything... but i guess everything tat has a beginning ...has an end to it..... and i guess the day before yesterday was the day tat mark this love in mistake to a down-curtain.
i'd been making excuses in hoping tat the dying ash will revive like a phenoix tat will burn again.... for almost 5 years... but only now i've finally realised....i've been in love with a fool..who never know wat love is.... all i can say is tat god has played me a trick.....and only now then i've waken up...
one thing tat i can be happy abt...is tat i can finally stand up and walk my life again with pride....and let bygones be bygones......i will no longer be cursed by the haunted love... and everything will start to fade...... even now i see those memories in black and white....soon it will fade along with time......
i start to see a light in the path of my life..... and i will be reaching for my northern star......in which ...my destinity lies......
Farewell to my wrong love...farewell to you...farewell to the aaron tat i used to be.
=P

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Tasting the bitterness of devastations and wondering where you've gone to.

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Living in the world of giving in and taking in,
i'm now down without a choice to be the one sacrificing.

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a girl who is in love only with her happiness.

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10:14 PM
I may not be the one you're looking for,
to walk ur life together through the rain.
I may not be the one you're searching for,
to walk ur life together with an umbrella.

I can't promise you tat my love will be strong enough to last ur journey,
But this is the only love tat i've for you that i'm willing to shelther you for juz a short path of ur life.

i try not to think abt the past,
but it keeps haunting me even if i've tried to close my eyes.
i try to keep the door close,
but memories of you walking out tat door still vividly appearing.

i try not to go to the places where we once had both our footprints laid,
but even if i'm wandering around , i end up following the path to where we once walked hands in hands.
i try not to think tat it's fate tat makes me still insanely in love with you,
but fate juz keeps torturing me by making me see your shadows in the crowded roads.

am i really in love?
when love is supposed to have a happy ending.
am i really in love?
when i don't even know the reason for loving you.

i wish time will eventually show you a way
the way to my heart.
so tat i will feel tat all the miseries tat i'm feeling now,
will soon be justified when you're back.

Am i really out of my mind,
to be so navie in believing this love story tat i've written all by myself?
Am i really out of my mind,
after knowing tat you've walked out of my life.................................

4:49 AM
hold on to me if you're falling,
so tat we could fall together for each other.

translate a well-said words from steven chow's journey to west part 2.....which is a long long time ago movie....

once there was a true love placing in front of me, but i didn't cherish it.
i took it for granted and soon it left me. When i had finally realised it, it was already too late for me to seize it.
the most miserable thing in life tat could happen to a person is nothing more than losing such a precious love.
if god could give me a chance to get back where it had started, i would not hesitate to say the 3 words to her. I love you.
and if it's a muz tat god wants this love to have a time limit.
i think i would hope tat it will be 10000 years.......

11:53 PM
tat time i was in ur room...i asked you why did you cut ur hair short instead of keeping ur hair long juz like before...
you answered me tat it's unreasonable and silly of me to ask you tat...and insist tat u looked prettier with long hair...
tat time when we were having our examz..i saw you with ur hair grew longer...... you looked juz as beautiful as before....

now i've finally realised tat it doesn't matter whether ur hair is long or not.....juz tat i wish to see the way you were in the past when we were still together...... not tat you're beautiful with long hair....juz tat i don't wanna feel stranger to you....
but how foolish of me to think tat way....coz i can't change the fact tat we were over........ for tat ...i wish to take back my words..........

12:05 AM
4:33pm i saw you walk into the cafe....
4:38pm i looked at ur shadow as you walked out of the cafe...
4:39pm tears started to flow.....
Only the clock on the wall witness my heartbreak...

12:31am i finally walked out of the door.....

7:54 PM
i held your hands,
juz like the way you held on to mine.
i walked beside you,
juz like the way you walked closely beside me.
we were so in love with each other.

now you've left me,
juz like the way your love has left mine.
now you're juz a stranger to me,
juz like the way you perceive me as one too.

wat if....and i really mean it....

i tot its becoz you've changed ur heart...and tat's why you left me..but i have finally realised i'm not the one you used to know...and tat's why you left..... and i don't actually love you..but being blinded to think tat i am....

it's not tat you don't love me anymore..but it's becoz i'm not whom i was......
but would you still keep ur promise with tat guy you used to love?

i'm not the aaron you used to know....and i don't know him either....
not tat i've suffered memory loss...but becoz i'm really not the guy but juz trying to be him ...living in his body...

and wat if...one day..the real aaron is back.....and i'm gone... will you be with him again?
and would anyone remember me as whom i am......?

i'm not trying to crack a joke out of this...or trying to make it seem so complex to make ur mind perplexed...
this might not happen to anyone....but i do believe there are some who feel the same as me.... having 2 persons living in the same body....
i'm not trying to get out ...but i juz wish ppl to see whom i am now....and not seeing me as the aaron they used to know... i've been trying so hard to please ppl by doing wat they perceive me as whom i was used to be under this human skin..... now i've finally reaslised tat i'm actually somebody else..... tat's why there juz things i can't remember in the past.....
sound scary isnt it? sighz..... is there anyone out there who understand wat i'm trying to convey? =P

12:08 AM
no gentle breeze shares the common sweetness tat my love could bring
no lesser than an red apple's sweet.
like the brightest star in the furthest sky,
spreads over distance and fades none of its shines.

i would not speak a word nor leak an echo from my heart,
not tat i have my voice entwined by the raintrees' vines.
i would not say this love as a ship drifting in a mist in the dark,
for i don't need a clear mind to justify an intuition feeling so strong inside.

Confession of this pearl in my heart may not buy ur diamond pure love in return.
But how could any man survive without his soul?
If this love has to be ended in the way it is as planned,
then bury me alive in the same grave where my dying love lie.

11:24 PM
Juz like toying the sand caught in the hourglass.....
Juz like making water turbulances in a water bottle....

There will be no ending for some things in life....
They juz keep repeating themselves through time....

Break tat hourglass.....burst tat water bottle....
wat i would forsee is juz pool of fresh warm blood all over the floor....

There will be no cries of terror....
there will be no groans of pain....

Juz when you have ur last breath in this filthy world and this breath seems such a heavenly relief to get ur final ultimate freedom....
You stare into the mirror over ur cold dead body covered with stinky blood tat almost stain the air red......
You wish that everything will juz end when u see the black curtain slowly fading ur vision and bringing you to a place with no more emotions and commotionz...not to forget not anymore of unexpected mental tortures in motions....
Juz when you taste a new air and you wake up and see.....
In shocks mixed with disappointments..... it's juz only a dream......and it will alwayz be a dream....
coz you're trapped in this world to take wat you ought to have...there's no way out of this feelings-turbulating hourglass of life....
You juz keep tasting ur blood......washing ur face with tears........ when you wish for a newborn...... what you get is juz another nightmare awaiting ahead.......
don't cry my child......plz don't...... why do you have to struggle to break through..... please my child....... please.....
you can never hide away from me....coz the reason for my existence is becoz of u....... i will follow where you're heading to..... i will haunt you down.......juz like ur shadow....... i'm the devil living here to break u down......don't think that ur foolish death could buy any mercy from me.... don't try to escape from me...... i will alwayz be there....... alwayz be there....alwayz be there....alwayz be there.....alwayz be there.....alwayz be there....alwayz be there...alwayz be there....... very very close to you..... my child......

1:11 PM
I hate this state whereby i'm being caught in a dilema... Should i....or shouldn't i....
When i start to dream of someone in my dreams...that's the signs of love for whom i'm in...
Lately i've dreamt of her....wonder why this had to happen.... not wondering why it's her... but wonder why my feelings are getting stronger after each day of trying to hold them back? juz like taming a wild beast...trying to stop love from burning fast in madness..... coz i forsee tat i'm heading on to a end of a cliff.....and i would juz fall in any time.....
i hope this taiwan trip will get me out of this world of uncertainties... =P

1:00 AM
What if a devil has fallen in love with an angel,
Would his fate be no end of loving her in total vain?
What if a devil couldn't speak the words of an angel,
Would his confession of love be left unsaid till the end of eternality?

I never choose to a devil,
I was born to be one.
But it is my choice to be in love with this angel,
Even if her gentle wings may burn my body in hell.

Would you love me for the way i love you,
And not the way i was being shaped up to.
Would you believe my words of love tat are diamond true,
And not thinking that these words are made of fury red sin.

If you can hear me out beneath this ugly skin of a devil,
Juz give a gentle kiss on my lips and let my love be conveyed.
If you can hear my heartbeat beats the same way as urs as an angel,
Juz give me a gentle hug and let my heart beat with urs from then on.

I never choose to be a devil,
I was born to one.
But it's my choice to be in love with this angel,
Coz she's the sole reason which made me here for loving her till the end of time.

10:34 PM
does it mean tat i've to be chained up in the prison of love,
if i've fallen in love with somebody tat i shouldn't have?

Or perhapz it isn't love tat i've found in it, but juz my foolishness is playing a game on me?
Could i plead for mercy?
Would i be freed?
Would i see another rainbow shine across the sky again.

8:58 PM
i can't find her lyricz through search engine...so i will juz typed her song myself...
Dido's new album.....i love the way she sings...smoothening... and simple lyricz.......
and this is the song tat makes me fall for her....

Dido
Title:White flag

i know you think that i shouldn't still love you or tell you that
but i didn't say it well i'd still have felt it, where's the sense in that
i promise i'm not trying to make your life harder or retun to where we were but

I will go down with this ship and i won't put my hands up and surrender
there will be no white flag above my door, i'm in love and always will be......

i know i left too much mess and destruction to come back again
and i cause nothing but trouble, i understand if you can't talk to me again
and if you live by the rules of it's over then i'm sure that that makes sense but

I will go down with this ship and i won't put my hands up and surrender
there will be no white flag above my door, i'm in love and always will be......

and when we meet, which i'm sure we will
all that was there, will be there still
i'll let it pass, and hold my tongue
and you will think, that i've moved on

I will go down with this ship and i won't put my hands up and surrender
there will be no white flag above my door, i'm in love and always will be......
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I will go down with this ship and i won't put my hands up and surrender...even if i'm drowning i won't be even calling for help...as i know no one will be there to hear me out...
there will be no white flag above my door.... not an indication tat i've dying without ur love..... even if i do...i won't be even calling out for you..as i know no one will be there to hear me out.....
but still....i'm in love with you....alwayz will be......even if you've already gone.......

7:51 PM
Tears of joy tasted warm and salty.
Tears of sorrow tasted cold and bitter.

Do you know tears have different tastes when it's fallen for different reasonz? Well..at least i think i can taste the difference....

9:33 PM
If I have to leave this world,
I would not bring you along.
But i would carry along the memories tat we once had,
And please don't shed a tear for me if i have to go heaven before you.

I may not be able to touch ur hands anymore,
And kiss you good nite on ur gentle fingers.
I may not be able to call out ur name,
And look into ur eyes while saying tat i still love you so.

If tat day really comes... please believe me tat i will be okie...
And promise me too... that you will be stay happy and cheerful alwayz...at least doing it for me...and for us....
=)

8:08 PM
never know a person can be so nicely disguised under one's appearance......
i have this sudden feelings of digust over wat i've seen..... and over wat i've heard...
i wish things never happen...wat a waste my time..and my youth..and my life.....
all the things said are all crapz..lies.... wonder how it was being nicely covered.... tat's enough to blind my eyes..and my intelligence....
i'm laughing over it....coz i juz find it dumb...... find it dumb on me..and dumb on them....
words of hatre? nah...... why would i? afterall i'm juz feeling kinda cheated for my past.... wonder why the lies are not being easily discovered...and more and more ppl juz fall for them.. how silly...and how ingenius the person is.... I never believe in God...but believe in "punishments" I may die as an unhappy man..but i know...for the ones who try to make my life miserable....or cheated on me... will get wat they deserve....and i don't need to lay a single finger on them..and they will juz burn in hell flame when the time is rite....
I alwayz have this sinful dream.... they will juz one day...kneel in front of me... in their most unsightful state, asking me to do them a little favour like wat i would use to do for them.... and all i would do is juz give them wat they had given me before ..and 10 times of tat... hmmz.. i guess everyone has their limits of tolerance... oh...in case if you're thinking whether i'm talking abt you....then you better get urself some distance away from me... and for those who knows i'm not talking abt them....juz to tell you...i'm so glad tat i've friends like you all.... well..shit happens.....i guess i juz stepped on one..... so please bear with my words of grumblings.....

2:30 AM
Betrayal,
Probing like a silent killer.
Crucifying straight to my heart,
With my last breath to mark the pain tat it brings.

Once you were my lover,
Down we fell apart as friends.
Heart to heart,
I still promised i'll be there even if the whole world is against you.

Now with this last stab right across my back,
It's deep enough for me to give a last cry.
In the name of betrayal,
I was drowned in the blood of utmost disgust.

You alwayz feel tat the world is owing you. Therefore, in order for you to wipe off this thinking, you turn it into blame across you so you will feel better. Unknowingly, you take emotional support from others. You're lucky tat there are ppl who show their sympathy out of purest love from their heart, hoping tat you will be better. Now look wat you've juz done, juz becoz of ignorance and ur taking me for granted.
Did i ever betray you? Since when i shut you out when you had no one to turn to, but having me in the last name in ur list? I still showed up to be a friend, to be someone for you to lean on....despite tat i'm the last person tat you would think of. I still welcome with my heart open, with a shlether for you to room in?
Now you should understand why you feel ur friends are betraying you, coz you're the one who let them down all the times. You will get wat you deserved. Life is alwayz fair. Juz hope tat in case you're reading this, you should know tat these words are the fists tat hit you rite now. It's wonderful for me to know tat i actually had a friend for more than 5 years. But well....everything tat begins will have an end to it. But i guess these years are long enough....
One thing you should really learn is to apologise when you need to.... did you ever really feel sorry...or are you too self-centered and ur arrogance is eating you up? Or perhapz...you never feel sorry for anything tat you do.... come to think abt it....i never hear a single sorry for you........... Hope one day, you realise it and you will say sorry to those who deserve tat from the bottom of ur heart.... You may be pretty...smart....but you can't be beautiful if you don't have the heart..... i start to wonder if it's worthed talking abt you with this post in my blog.... perhapz you don't even deserved to be remembered.... Geez..i'm harsh..... forgive me....coz i'll be carrying the knife at by back as a memoir.....

12:01 AM
New Age
Artist: Era
Song Album: The Mass
Fantastic song...and it's able bring you to nirvana.............

1:04 AM
The Shirelles---Will You still Love Me Tomorrow

Tonight you're mine completely
You give your love so sweetly
Tonight the light of love is in your eyes
But will you Still love me tomorrow?
Is this a lasting treasure
Or just a moment's pleasure?
Can I believe the magic of your sighs?
Will you still love me tomorrow?
Tonight with words unspoken
You say that I'm the only one
But will my heart be broken
When the night meets the morning sun?
I'd like to know that your love Is love
I can be sure of
So tell me now, and I won't ask again
Will you still love me tomorrow?
Will you still love me tomorrow?
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If you treasure a relationship so much... have you picture urself tearing in front of the one you love with all ur heart.... asking her/him this qns, " will you still love me tomorrow?"
Juz a simple qns..but the answer could mean a whole world........
To my future wife.... will you still love me tomorrow?

7:36 PM
We are all born angels with a pair wings reaching for heaven,
And it's love tat breaks one of wings and makes us fall.
In searching for the one who has the identical wing to pair,
You will keep falling till you find the one who's strong enough to complement ur flight.

3:22 PM
Many ppl see love as a stalk of rose, beautiful but with threatening thorns. Some of those who try to pursue it, get themselves hurt with pain that will never be forgotten. And they will have the "once-bitten-twice-shy" after-effect that their fingers will feel a burning sensation whenever they see another rose.
Others, who are luckly enough, finally gently get hold on to a lovely rose in their hands. They believe the rose belong to them forever, and taking it for granted, they will only look at it when they are down or when they feel tat they need a love, a company. But as time goes by, even if they start to leave it in a vase with water when they see signs of dry petals, it will still slowly wither. Leaving them with immense grief, they will not understand why even the most precious rose from garden of Eden, given by the angels of love, will still wither and die like a normal flower. In the end, only a vague picture of the pretty rose left in their memories which they wish to feel it again, but never could they.
Have you ever tried tasting a rose petal? It has a bit of sweetness, a bit of sourness and a bit of bitterness and finally leaving the fragrance of the rose on ur lips. That is purely the taste of love.
Love is made up of greed and lust, that make you wish to possess it when you are mesmerized by its beauty. Love is made up of jealousy which makes you feel sour. Love is made up of candy-coated happiness and the distasteful sadness.
One who truely understands wat love is, will gently take a petal of the rose and nibble just for a bit of its taste. Seeing the form of love not just by its appearance but also by its distinctive aroma and its taste. With tat, by the rose will live in his heart never will it ever going to wither.
Try it and you will know....... =P

9:33 PM
i don't know if it's normal....somehow i've forgotten how to love....
wat's love? should i be glad for at least i won't be hurt anymore.... perhapz i should...
=P
i feel so "mechanical". Study is my job....not tat i have a choice...but rather....i've already been shaped to be..... Looking back to the past tat once had...... they seem to alien to me......
Have i changed? Perhapz...........

12:41 PM
on the 25th of sept.....it rained the whole day.....

3:04 PM
Aqua
title:Turn Back Time



Give me time to reason,
give me time to think it through.
Passing through the season,
where I cheated you.

I will always have a cross to wear,
but the bolt reminds me I was there.
So give me strength,
to face this test of mine.

(Chorus 1)

If only I could turn back time,
If only I had saved what I still had.
If only I could turn back time,
I would stay for the night... for the night.


Claim your right to science,
Claim your right to see the truth.
Though my pangs of conscience,
Will drill a hole in you.

I've seen it coming like a thief in the night,
I've seen it coming from the flesh of your light.

So give me strength,
to face this test of mine.

(Chorus 2)

If only I could turn back time,
if only I had saved what I still had.
if only I could turn back time,
I would stay.


The bolt reminds me I was there
the bolt reminds me I was there

(repeat chorus during fade)

I juz happen to listen to this mp3 ......i know it's an old song..... very old song.. i still remember the movie ....
It's a very unique movie in fact.... *turn back time* if i'm positive.... it's showing 2 possibilities .....whether the guy got up to the train or he doesn't........ But anywayz.... i love the music and the voice of this song..... nice....love it.....
If only i could turn back time, if only i had saved wat i still had........
if only....dreams could come true........

1:48 PM
Ronald and Landy know each other since they were young in a dancing school. However, Ronald had quitted school because of his academic studies and he had lost his contact with Landy.
Over the years, finally a tender drop of fate fell upon them once again when one day they met each other on a street. They exchanged contacts and began to meet up often to have this friendship returned to their lives. They got along very well and little did Ronald realise tat his affection for Landy was growing slowly in his heart.
Until one day,he discovered tat he had already fallen deeply in love with Landy and he couldn't contain his secret admiration anymore, he confessed to her. But her reply struck him like a thuderbolt and petrified his broken heart.
"I've a boyfriend already. It's been more than 2 years. He's nice to me.I know you've been very nice to me too. But i always wish to have someone who cares for me like a brother to sister. We will be brother and sister, okie?"
She said with her sweet voice that melted Ronald's heart and left him no reason to disagree. And they carried on with this friendship just like before.
However, Ronald's affection has never subsided, though he has constantly reminding himself not to make any attempts of breaking Landy's relationship with her boyfriend. When they were out for a movie or dinner together, Ronald brought up casual converstations over her boyfriend, attempting to know more about this guy whom Landy has always been loving as she doesn't talk about him most of the time.
Although Landy has a boyfriend, she is still spending most of her time with Ronald. And this puzzles Ronald even more as it's weird tat Landy hardly talks about her boyfriend and neither does she spend her time with him.
"Could she be in love with me?" Ronald began to wonder and his confidence built up once again. " Could this be true? Perhaps i shall give another try?"
Ronald hence picked up his courage and decided to go to a florist shop to get a bouquet of roses for a second confession. Surprisingly, he found Landy in the same flourist shop, carrying her purchased fresh ladvenders in her hands
"Hey. Wat a coincidence. I'm just wandering around and i've found you here. Where are you going?"
"I'm meeting my boyfriend." She replied with her usual smile on her face. "You wanna accompany me, since you're free."
Ronald thought for a moment over her question, as he was in a dilema. He felt tat it may be awkward if he sees Landy with her boyfriend face to face, but his urge of knowing how her boyfriend looks like is driving him to go.
"Well, why not?" Ronald finally decided.
They both took a train journey. Ronald quietly stood beside Landy, not knowing wat to say, quietly looking at her cheerful face. He didn't know where they were heading.
"Outram Park.....Outram Park...."
Landy pulled Ronald out the train and brought him to SGH( Singapore General Hospital).
"She's found a doctor as her boyfriend? I should have given up my hope. What a shame i've been in." Ronald thought to himself as he followed Landy up the stairs in the hospital.
"This is it! Am i looking pretty? Am i ready to go in?" Landy asked innocently like a child just outside the door of a patient ward.
Ronald nodded. And Landy with her ladvenders in her hands, excitedly went into the room with ronald followed quietly behind.
"Alex! It's me. How are you feeling today?" Landy flew to sit on a chair beside an unconscious patient on the bed and held his hands with hers.
"Can you smell my ladvender? The florist said tat these are freshly imported here today! How luckly i am?"
Ronald was stunned by the scene of Landy talking to a lifeless person, speechessly looking at the two of them.
"Do you still remember wat's the significance of today? It's the 4th of October! Our fourth year anniversary! Tee hee. You know......"
"So you're a friend of Landy, i supposed." A voice hit Ronald at the back. He turned and saw a doctor speaking to him.
"It's been exactly 2 years since Alex came into the hospital after a nasty car accident tat turned him a vegetarian due to a drunken driver." The doctor admires the scene of Landy with her boyfriend as he explained.
" Heard tat he met the accident while crossing over a road to meet up with Landy to celebrate their anniversary. I still remember when he came in, his hands are still gripping on a bouquet of ladvender."
The doctor continued.
"It must be the true love tat keeps Landy strong for these years. She always come here once a week for a few hours, talking to Alex, hoping tat he will wake up one day. Whenever i see Landy talking to Alex like now, as if i can feel wat landy believes in her heart, tat he will wake up one day. You must be a very close friend of Landy, you're the only person she had brought along with."
Ronald was so moved by the story and felt so heart-warming after knowing the love tat Landy has alwayz been giving and tears began to fill up in his eyes.
".....i've brought Ronald here today. My brother-liked friend whom i've alwayz been talking about. I'm sure you'll be happy to meet him."
Landy came back and pulled Ronald along to the front.
"Come! Let me introduce. Ronald! This is Alex. And Alex, this is Ronald. Tee hee."
Ronald was at a loss for words, not knowly wat to say, but looked closely at the lying patient on the bed.
Wat he saw was a genuine smile marked on the pale face. A grin of true happiness.

10:48 PM
liang ge ren bi chi xiang ai, cai jiao yuan fen.

----------turn right turn left

from the movie...i see two apects....typical aspects of love.....- love or be loved.....
i've seen myself as cheng zhi cai during one part of the show..... where he was showering in the bathroom.... and gigi is crying so badly outside...and picking up her courage..she used the harshest words tat she had ever said to him.... her tears...show how unbearable the irritation tat he had done to her...... was i behaving the same way he did to you?
i would never wish to get ur tears fallen for me..... sometimes when a person is so in loved, he/she is blinded.... wish love could be perfect....trying to make it perfect...and ended up a tragedy. i should learn to let go...when i should.... staying will only make both of us miserable.........

to love..... as i've said..... love needs faith and trust to last...... it's not abt distance between the two person..but the two hearts..... i really wonder if i could really find the "one" for me... who has the same faith....and trust in me......or it could only exist in movies.......

2:36 AM
Don't curse the darkness. Light the candle.

-------------------------- A dear dear friend
:: congz 7:36:57 PM [+] ::
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happen to see this from somebody's blog..
i think it's meaningful..... though if i were the one writing it..i will write " live with it" as the ending sentence.... keke... Din know lighting a candle is a better choice...
wonderful phrase i think.
=P
thanx...to whoever wrote that

2:51 PM
i believe happiness is painted white.
i believe sadness is painted blue.
i believe luck is painted green.
i believe disappointment is painted violet.
i believe jealousy is painted margenta
i believe loneliness is painted black.

but i'm colourblind......i see my world in grey..........